Today was actually a great day . . . it was a long work day but I keep feeling phantom movements in my belly! Not sure if its . .umm. . (shhh .. .) gas or if it's Roscoe . .but hopefully he will be big enough, soon enough, for me to REALLY feel!
Quick update: Last week, I went to the doctor with Sarah, who has agreed to be my doula! And we had a good visit. Roscoe's heart beat is strong . . . and I have ONLY gained 6 pounds and I am 19 weeks!!! WHAT?? Go ME!, Go ME! I refuse to lose my sexy . . NO! NO! NO!
Anyway, I received some great words of wisdom from a dear friend/family member that uplifted my spirits . .
The recap in short . . .
- He was THRILLED that Roscoe was coming into the world . . . why is that uplifting? Well, honestly, I was surprised at how few folks actually expressed sheer joy about the coming of a baby - maybe they were trying to read MY mood, which I completely understand. .. for those of you who have seen the depths of my soul on this issue . . I get it . . believe me. But I have prayed and I am in the process of moving to a better place and settled in on the reality of this life experience, so maybe thats why . .but all I know . . is he made me feel amazing!! And i have only felt that with 1 or 2 other people in my life . . . crazy . . .
- He explained why people may not react exactly the way I thought they would : Sometimes, I think I know how I come across to other people but guess what . . . not so much . . . Eugenius explained . . This very "human experience" that I am having may seem in direct opposition with this very hard core "business" shell that I have a tendency to show. Who knew? I have always considered myself quite sensitive AND for those who really KNOW me . . you already know this to be true.
- He reminded Me . . The Universe will allow me to show love and sensitivity through Roscoe: Hmmm . . never thought about that blessing . . but thats real . . . wow . . what an amazing experience . . .
- And lastly, he said . . "It may be uncomfortable, but CHANGE is uncomfortable". .. yet another PROFOUND statement for me. . .
Now some of you may be having an Oprah moment . . . and thinking "wow, that is common sense" or even better, " I said that same thing to her . . ."
Well, all I can say is that you have to be ready to be ready . . and also charge it to my head and not my heart . . .
Just my thoughts, folks . . love you . .
Yeah, girl. First... you look amazing. Second... Im' so excited to be on this journey with you. Third... you are a blessing in all our lives.
ReplyDeleteWOW, I LOVE this picture of you! You sassy thang. And reading the joy in your face brings joy to mine. I love to read about your progress on this journey.
ReplyDeleteEugenius is DEFINITELY a genius with those words he blessed you with!!! This pregnancy rolercoster is gonna be one of the biggest/craziest events in your life!!! And you already got thru the worst era of it (1st Trimester) without being horribly sick!!! Roscoe is already a TEAM PLAYER!!!! GO MOMMY!!! Bein on the phone with u while u drove from 31 flavors, to Coldstone's, to Mc Donalds was the best...I remember those days like they were'nt 6 years ago!! I LOVE IT!!! congrats Mami...u know God doesn't bless us with things we can't handle...
ReplyDeleteLove you Che!! Yeah . . I found that Ice Cream fix . . like nobody's business!! And I love that you put me on blast on my blog!
ReplyDeleteSarah/Anne - know that you inspire me . . in more ways than one . .